just updating :)

So I'm married!! Actually, I've been married for about a week now. Its such an awesome feeling knowing that you're finally going to be with the person you love without having other people,like your parents, telling you when you have to be home--or just plain telling you what you have to do. Its awesome. Almost liberating. I feel completely independent. I love being home--the hotel room, for now lol. I love waiting for David to come home for lunch and then come home for good at 4. I love watchin tv with him and just laughing at the little things. I love falling asleep in his arms after a wonderful day with him.

Ok ok I'm gushing now, but I just can't help it lol. Anywho. So even with all of this happy lovey dovey stuff there's always some tears. It just so happens that the last time I cried was at the airport when I was saying bye to my family...I had always told myself that I didn't think I was going to cry. But, it was inevitable...seeing my dads usual stone face turn red and trying to hold back tears just pulls at something in you. And to top it all off...my mother was crying a river...and THAT was the most painful thing to see. I can't stand to see my mother cry whether I'm mad at her or not...she was so choked up she could barely talk to me. When I hugged her for the last time she told me she'd miss me so much and that she loved me a lot. I broke down and just cried. I cried while I was on line going through security check and a littl after that. I realized that this wasn't some kind of vacation...I'd be leaving them and not seeing them until who knows when...if I'm having trouble with something I can't just say hey no worries ill ask my mom later when I see her, cuz I won't be seeing her for a while... "/


Well, I got a lot more to say but I have to shower and make lunch for my husband. Hopefully now that I'm alone more I will take more time out to update and vent on this blog thing lol. :)